Sign #2

So I've gotten my second sign within the past month if you don't include the dreams where I am worried that Lane will miss his plane to China to go pick up our daughter. I've had a few where he's on the edge of missing his flight. But I've also had a few where I am talking to him from China about our daughter.

Anyhow...today as every Sunday we attended Mass. I was walking up the walkway to the entrance of the church when all of a sudden, smack, a ladybug lands on my cheek. It kind of freaked me out at first because I saw it come flying towards my face and I couldn't tell what it was until I picked it off my cheek. I'm not afraid of bugs, but if I don't know what they are, I'm none to keen about them crawling on me. So when I plucked it off my cheek, I was speechless. I haven't seen a ladybug all spring thus far and the first one I see lands on my face.

Of course I turned to Lane and said, "It's another sign." I've been praying quite hard every night for not only finding our daughter, but also for my dad finding a better job. My dad was offered a wonderful job back in my home state of Indiana so that he can live with my mom again. For the past year he has been living in Southern Florida and working for a company that presented itself for more than it really was. He doesn't mind visiting Florida, but he hates living there. It's just not his cup of tea. He's been trying very hard to find a job back in the Midwest. He also has an interview with another company on Wednesday out in Wichita and expects a job offer from them. So I hope he has 2 jobs to choose from, but at least I know he has one that he will accept if the 2nd company decides not to hire him, but I doubt that's going to happen. I'm just thankful that he'll be back home where he belongs with my mom.

Some of you might not know this but I have felt that God has been calling me to adopt a SN child with a heart condition. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I myself have spent my nearly 32 years (birthday's on the 30th) of existence dealing with my own heart condition. According to the doctor's I had growing up, I shouldn't be alive. But I am and should live to a ripe old age. I'm not saying I'm better than any other parent out there, but I think it can be much easier to deal with a child's health problems when you yourself have been through it. Plus, I'm still seeing Pediatric Cardiologists since it's a congenital thing, so I've already got my foot in the door with what I feel are some of the best cardiologists. So come July, when our agencies next WC list comes out, I hope I will see our daughter's beautiful face on that list. And maybe I'm also asking those of you who are my family, friends and internet buddies to pray that our wish of finding our daughter in July comes true. We've been through 4 WC lists so far, maybe #5 will be lucky.