Five Little Words

We did not get called.

I'm definitely really bummed about this. I had hoped that we were finally getting our shot to be parents again. It's still not completely out of the question since a family could review the file and say no. Then the agency could pick another family that could be us. But I'm not holding my breath. Anymore these children are placed with the first family.

It's not that I'm tired of waiting. OK, I am a little bit. My son worships the ground Lane walks on and prefers him over me and so I'm ready to have a little girl that adores her mommy. But I'm more tired of trying my damnedest to bring a child with a SN into my family. It seems like I have spent the majority of my life getting the shaft - and this is no lie. If you put my name in a hat with another persons name, I can guarantee you that you would pull the other persons name 75% of the time. That's how horrible my luck is.

I guess I'm also really frustrated how the system works for SN kids. I really wish the CCAA regardless of LID would take all the families who in their homestudies say that they are open to SN and match them with children and get those kids into homes faster rather than circulating them from agency to agency. We stated what SN we were open to in our homestudy and letter in our dossier. I also kind of wished that CHI would work the way Dillon and Holt do with their WC. I found out from people who I know are working with Dillon and Holt that if you are interested in a SN child you go on a waiting list and then when these agencies get their next batch of WC they match those children up with families who are open to that specific special need. The family reviews the file and if they don't feel that child is right for them, they are not penalized they just stay on the list and then that child is made available to anyone working with the agency. I kind of wish I had known that, but I still love CHI.

Sorry, just wishing the day had turned out different. I'm in a bit of a pissy mood, I know. I'll be fine in a few days.