Sticking with it

As I come to realize that it's possible that we will not move to our next duty station with another child, I do realize that China is our destiny. Don't know why, but it's this feeling I have inside. I have a picture of exactly what my daughter looks like in my mind. I can't describe it, but I see her with these cute little brown pigtails and a smile full of teeth.

We are going to try harder than anything to adopt a waiting child. I think we believe that is our true destiny. Another feeling I have. There is no guarantee that will happen but I am entrusting my faith in God that he will decide what's right for us.

CHI, our agency is returning the files to the children they were unable to place at the end of this month. Not sure how many will be returned. Currently there are 4 children still waiting for homes. There is a little girl on the list whose SN (special need) is that she's cross-eyed and farsighted or so that's what the technical terms mean, but I'm sure there is more to it than just that. She is absolutely beautiful and I've been drawn to her since the moment I laid eyes on her, but she will be turning 9 tomorrow and I don't know how difficult life would be to adjust to a 9 year old and a 3 year old. And that's such a huge age difference between 2 children. It would be so much easier if she was only 5 or 6.

They are anticipating the next batch of WC to arrive in June or July. I guess our next hope of finding our daughter is then. We have now viewed 4 groups of WC since we started working with CHI last year and not once were lucky enough go find our daughter. I'm hoping and praying that things will change this year.

There has been much talk about the CCAA having a website where families from all agencies that they use can search for WC who need homes. Not sure when or if this will ever happen. I think it would be tremendous if it did. So many children would find homes much more quickly this way than having to be passed from agency to agency in hopes of finding a home.

That's it for now.