Back...Sort Of

I'm over my cold but still hacking up a lung. I hate coughing. I have no problem fighting congestion but absolutely hate the coughing that can go with it. It is getting better though and hopefully will be gone soon.

Still taking things in stride. I think I've kind of just thrown my hands up in the air over the whole China thing. It's a no-win situation at this point and I'm not going to try and control it anymore. It doesn't help when a fellow FCC family in the local area received their referral for a SN daughter less than 6 months after LID. Granted the agency they are using works on a SN or NSN track and they were in line for a daughter with SN, it doesn't make it any easier. There are times I wish our agency worked this way because a big part of me thinks we'd have our baby girl by now. I am truly happy for this family but it doesn't make the sting any less.

As for the family issue, I'm still dealing with it and won't have any answers until at least next week, I think. Unfortunately I don't know. This is the situation. Since this Spring my dad has had a raspy throat and the doc he saw down in FL told him it was due to acid reflux and gave him meds for it. However it didn't get better and finally went to see a doctor recently who determined that he had a lump in his throat. They did an MRI about 10 days ago and I haven't heard anything from the folks about it. This Friday he will have a biopsy done on the lump to see if it is cancerous. I'm a wreck. I'm worried and scared. Let me give you a little background info. My dad grew up extremely musically inclined. As a child he played the violin and then learned to play the guitar and banjo. This past spring he had a growth on his finger that was removed. However the doctor botched the surgery to remove it and now he is unable to play the guitar anymore. My dad has always been a great singer too and due to the lump can't sing for the time being. We grew up being entertained by my dad and he taught us to love music and sing (not that I'm American Idol material, but I can carry a tune). I'm heartbroken because at this point he can't share that love of music with his grandson. He can't play for him, he can't sing for him and it just makes me cry thinking about it. I am praying that everything turns out well for my dad. He's overcome a lot in his life including alcoholism and I don't know what my life would be like without him. He just turned 60 in August. He needs to be around for his grandkids. I still need him for his guidance and wisdom. OK, time to stop crying.

So I'll be on and off when the mood hits me to post. I'll definitely give an update on my dad. I'm definitely keeping up with all of my blogging buds. Just keep thinking about me :)