Minds Are Bizarre

Before we received our referral I had dreams about Emilija. What she looked like, what she was doing, etc. I think those dreams were part of what kept me going on this very long journey.

Well, last night it happened. The first crazy China dream. PIPO while she waited had dreams about a little Chinese boy who spoke Italian. Mine wasn't anything like that but nonetheless, it happened.

I'm sure you're all dying to know what it was about right? Well let me start out by saying there were quite a few other China blogger mom's and their kiddos in the dream. She was there. And so was she. Then there was her and her. Lastly Pug Mama and her little girl. My guess as to why it was these 5 ladies and their kiddos is because their blogs are usually the ones I read 1st and because 2 of them, like me are waiting to go get their girls. I'm not really sure what their purpose in the dream was but we were all there together.

The big thing that sticks out in my mind about the dream is that I couldn't sign my name correctly on all the paperwork we needed to fill out. I remember looking at it after signing it and it looked like a drunk had signed it. Very few letters were recognizable and I'd get frustrated each and every time I failed. I know a few times I would try to sign where Lane was supposed to be signing because I had messed up my own name in hopes that I could get it right and yet again, it looked the same. I remember at one point I broke down crying because we were going to have to request new forms which was going to make us wait for Emi longer because I couldn't sign my name right.

I'm beginning to wonder if my dream wasn't a reaction to the fact that yes, we are in mounds of paperwork trying to get our home study addendum to meet new state laws since we now live in a different state from where we had our original home study done. I'm freaking out it won't be done in time because Lane is still in the June travel group. I contacted the U.S.C.I.S. office via email about our fingerprints which expire in 1 month and they said they can't extend them until they have X,Y & Z. It includes the home study addendum which of course we don't have because we're working on getting it done. The agency we are using for that, C.C.A.I. said it could take 4 weeks to complete...I can't even wrap my head around all of it. I so don't want to wait another month to bring Emi home.

Breathe in, breathe out. Breathe in, breathe out.

There was a 2nd China dream but I don't remember it. I tried to make myself remember it but alas, it didn't happen but I do remember it existed.

I need to go put some makeup on so I can head out the door and get my feet pampered. Might help me de-stress a bit too.